Another School Year Begins

I moved into a new apartment and started an accelerated class today. I don't know why, but I thought about you over these past two days. It feels like I'm stuck in a loop...sometimes I'm able to just think about our past and smile at the good memories, and other times, I can't help but look at your old pictures and wonder what could have been.

It's been an interesting summer. I just celebrated my birthday last week, but it didn't have that same feeling as in past years. Even though we weren't together last year, it meant a lot to me that you were there with me on my birthday. And the birthday song was a nice surprise present that I'll always remember. It was a warm celebration and truly heartfelt.

Although I miss what I had, I thank God for letting me experience those times and for giving me wonderful memories to take with me through the rest of my life. If God will grant me some wishes for you for this next school year, I ask for the following for you:

• Get a great full-time offer
• Finish off strong with all A's
• Enjoy your last semester as a college student
• Live with no regrets
• Find happiness, love, and laughter
• Reconnect with old friends that you truly value
  
• Develop into a strong, confident man ready to take on the world

I admit, I still haven't gotten over you fully. If I love you from a distance, though, and wish you to have a good life, will I find satisfaction in that? Time will tell. But for now, I love you. I've been denying it, avoiding it...but that's the truth, and it feels so right to see it written here. I love you.