Thoughts Flowing

I looked at your profile today, and I smiled at the pictures of your niece, nephew, and family. There was a lot of bitterness in the past when I found out that you put me on your limited profile list. I should have defriended you, but I didn't. I understand why I couldn't do it in the past, even through the hurt and anger...but why can't I do it now? You let go of me in the beginning, so you'll probably let go of me in your heart before I ever even get the nerve to think about it.

One question people always ask is, would you ever take him back if he asked to get back together again? Of course the standard answer is no. There was too much heartache, unthoughtfulness, and doubt during this past year to just say yes. I'm sure my family and friends would say to just move on and remember him as my first love - But I wish that you would fight for me. I will always wish that. Fight against people's opinions and judgments, fight against the uncertainty, fight against your own stubbornness. And I promise you, I will give you all of my love forever. Although we may have changed during our time apart, I have a gut feeling that everything will turn out good.

I know your reaction to this post would be that I'm being naive, and it's not just as easy as following your feelings. There was a reason why we broke up (which you know better than I do why it happened), and I have not addressed the issues that affected us. You know my stance, and I may have to pay for it forever. It touches the core of who I am, and if you can accept me for it, I will always stand by you, support you, and sacrifice for you.

My posts have only been read by me since I've started writing, but if you happen to stumble upon this blog and have read this far, please do me a favor. Please never give up on your Love.

Happy Birthday

Happy birthday (in about an hour lol). I wish you happiness, success, love, generosity, good health, and wisdom. I know I can't tell you that in person, but I feel it in my heart.

P.S. Smile more - you look your best when you genuinely smile and your eyes crinkle up and your smile lines show :)